exam finished. time for window shopping

i juz came back from window shopping at Sanyan.. wit Pui Wen. Thanx to her for bringing me out. or else i will be lying on the bed the whole day dreaming.. Sometimes it is nice juz to see without buying .. i can go to one shop and another, without spending so much time in 1 shop, juz to choose the best cloth or whatever stuff that i m looking for..Cuz i want the best for each cent i spend. and at the end, juz bcuz i am not satisfied with the design ( actually, it is my body that doesn't "fit" the cloth..) i go out of the shop with empty hands, after spending few hours juz in that shop..
well.. who can blame me.. i am a Girl.... haha
i went to the 1 Beauty Shop, looking at the nail accessories.. those small beads with nice colors that are glued on the nail.. then suddenly a salesgirl approached me.. She looked at my face.. asked me, "what product do u use?" Damn.. i know la my face is the house of acnes now.. so sad man.. she was like trrying to convince me to try their beauty treatment.. if i have EXTRA money, i would. but since i have none, well.. i juz have to listen and say ya ya ya... then ciau... haha.. well, at the moment, rather than wasting my money on beauty spa, i prefer to use that money to see private dermatologist.. to know what is actually my prob.. so frustrated. my skin is like getting worse since i come to Sibu.. could it be due to the environmental factors? hormone prob? streess? arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! i really wanna know.. Looking at the miror makes my heart ache.....
it may be bcuz of the environment here.. my house is juz few steps away from the construction site. they are building a few rows of houses.. the lorries and those big trucks will faithfully pass my house everyday, bringing big junk of bricks and dunno what else la.. n when they pass, all the dust will like so happily flying and floating,, it's like " wow..woohoo... at last i can fly to new place..mm let's see, where shud we go? huh, i know!! let's go to Weizen's face! it is a good potential house to live in.. woohooo!!" then they drop by my face.. then the oil factory inside will overeact to welcome new guests and start to produce oil.. the oil is like wine to them, so there they are, happily celebrating the visitors, and CAUSING MY FACE TO BECOME LIKE THIS!!!!
well that is my 1st theory la..
Hormone imbalance? may b, and may be not.. well, if it is due to hormone, y is my menses not affected? i stil have it every month.. or may be there is hormone imbalance, but not that severe that could affect the menses? i dunno.. i juz finished paeds posting, hevent gone into O&G yet.. only this Monday it will start ( now im honeymoon-ing, pity those who r in O&G now, they r still anxiously waiting for their last clinical exam tomorrow.. hehe ).. arghh...
or may be the stress? well.. everybody will point to the STRESS whenever they couldnt find any cause to their acne prob.. haha.. kasian.. but i dun think stress is the culprit.. all this while i am struggling with different kind of stress, y only the acne prob started to appear when im in Sibu? or is it the stress of clinical years is heavier? may be.. well, in fact, yes it is.. every 2-3 months i will have a maniac cycle, my emotion will suddenly fluctuate very high bcuz of the exam.. n once exam finished (like now... wooo...so nice..) , it will drastically drop down.. if i plot it in a graph, like the growth chart that we plot for the childre in paeds, it will look like many inverted "V" with straight line in between.. Haha.. how could my body stand with that kind of drastic streesss?? fuhh. well.. medic life is like this.. just like what Dr Ameen said during our feedback session, dun regret once u've taken this path, it is already half way.. get urself interested in it.. well.. that is true..
mm.. i will only know what is my prob when i consult a dermatologist.. which i dunno when.. to see private dermatologist, i think it will cost me few hundreds.. wow.. n to see goverment dermatologist, whom i already made an appointment with, only available this May. n by the time i would have finished my clinical in Sibu. how leh? well.. just wait and see la.. for the time being, i juz have to stand the parasites on my face.. sadly...