The last exam of Year 4 has finally ended. Now I am officially a final year student.
MM... wonder how would it be to spend the last year in medical scool. Sounds so scaryy.... at the end of this last year, a big important exam, an exam that will determine whether I am qualified or not to practice as a doctor, waits for me.
Medical school... MM, overall, I dun enjoy it. Not because of the syllabus, not the academic. But the life here. I live day by day. A day feels like a year. Feel so abandoned. Feel lonely. Very lonely. Life here as a student, no income, no extra money, no car, really limits my life, it sucks. I can't wait to finish so that I can finally have my own money every month, have my own car. So that no matter how life sucks, I can still drive myself around, buy myself beautiful dress, go to slimming center to burn my fat, or just go traveling, get my butt out of it!
I hope I can have my own house when I work. Just a small simple house. But I will make it the most comfortable house ever! I believe work & life as a doctor, especially a HO, would be very miserable. Work like there is no tomorrow. So I want a house that whenever I come back from hospital, gives me a total serenity. Will make it 'air-con'ed, nowadays the whether burns my skin. The sun is no more a friendly creature. It becomes more powerful each day. My sunburnt skin has stil not recovered yet. Then I will buy the glow-in-the-dark decorating stars & paste it onto the wall just above my bed. So that every night before I sleep, the stars lullaby me with its beautiful shape & light. Whenever I am stressed, lonely, I will drive myself to a place, may be to the beach, to watch the stars. Cuz the stars are so beautiful! They twinkle as if they are dancing, the sound of the wave are like their music. While they dance, they transmit the power, power of healing, power of peace, power of beauty. They have the affinity to me & get absorbed to my blood. Travel & circulate to the whole body, and there I am, alive again!!!
But of course, at the same time, I still want to enjoy the present. I dun want to leave this medical school with empty-handed. I want to leave behind some beautiful moments to be remembered. So that I have at least something to be proud of being UNIMAS student. I dun want to waste today just to wait for tomorrow. I want to live today, every second, every moment to reach tomorrow. Because we will never know, today could b our last day...
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Monica Weizen Justin is verbally not good in words. So here i am, writing down all my thoughts, my feelings that no one in this world would know. So whoever bother to read this, could understand me better. If there is no one bothers, it is ok. It is simply because i don't create this blog for you, but for myself. :)
If there is anywhere in my stories that you think has something adversely to do with you, i hereby apologize first. I just want to have my own page with my own stories without being censored. The pages are the products of my thoughts that have been derived from a rational reasoning in my own unique way.
I want to be just myself.
If there is anywhere in my stories that you think has something adversely to do with you, i hereby apologize first. I just want to have my own page with my own stories without being censored. The pages are the products of my thoughts that have been derived from a rational reasoning in my own unique way.
I want to be just myself.
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