sweet yet distant dream

It has been months now, since I last saw him. Indeed, he is still in my mind. And I am missing him.

What a sweet but distant dream u are, boy....

Smokers

Ok here I am in KK. Running away from the boredom in Labuan.
But looks like it doesn't spare me here as well.

MM.. kinda hate the life here, Right Here!
Staying here with people with terrible attitudes, disgusting habits in a dirty home doesn't make my life any better.

Let me have a few words on smoker. I think, they are among the most self-fish people living on the mother earth.
So much to say about the bad effects that it brings, besides the so called calming puff that they breathe into their lungs.
They just too dumb to realize it, too ignorant to aware, too stubborn to absorb the advice, and I guess too healthy to become sick.
Well, i don't care you guys smoke. It is not my fucking business when finally one day you guys dying on the bed thinking why on earth would you even touched the thing !

But when u smoke, I take that damn fucking killing smelly smoke in too!

Try to hold your breath for 3min, or may be 2? See if u can survive or not. I mean, God gives us the air, the damn fucking air for us to breathe. And there are just selfish people who polute it, and other people like me have to take it!

There is so much to say about this species. but just to cut it short, they are nothing but selfish people.

insomnia

Having insomnia lately. To be exact, initial insomnia.

Would that mean an early sign towards depression?

My Psy book had all gone down the trash can, cause I know that I won't get myself near to that field.

I mean, it is nice talking to people with Schizophrenia, it is interesting to know what's in their minds, what is the voice telling them, what do they see.

But we all know that is not true. it is just a disorder of the brain, malfunction of some of the chemical connecting the neurons.

Shit, this long empty holiday melts my brain.

To continue, I know what's bugging my mind. All those never-ending-prob.

Trying to call for some help, but I guess it is on the way. It was yesterday, is today, and will be still on the way tomorrow.

Well, yesterday, I add one new person to my friend list. Not a friend yet though, and may not be. At least I talked to a stranger, which is a potential friend. Which I am so desperate for at the moment.

I should socialize more, make more friends. But weizen is just poor in making friends.

People usually have the impression of That girl is so cold (looking at me).

Well, I am what I am. it is hard to change. it is just the outer me. If only people understand...

The typing sounds seems to lullaby me. Gonna head back to the bed. Try to sleep.