Woot!

Hello world! Good morning! Woohoo! Yeehaa!
I strongly believe this is the after-day-off effect!
Silly weizy is so energetic, singing Tsamina Mina Eh Eh Waka Waka Eh Eh Tsamina Mina Zangalewa This is Africa!
Dont believe me, this is just the side effect of caffein!

Yeah there u go weizy. wake up at 3am to study NRP. Why?

Well.. Because today I am the Doraemon! Woohoo! Pssstt.. Anything u want? Magic door? Oh no. i'm sorry. I'd better save it for myself, might need that to disappear myself to the OT later! Can't wait to be the heroin of the day! Woot! Woohoo! Can I just shout at the world already! Woohoo! Woooo! Gosh why am I so energetic!!

Waka waka Eh Eh!

Wish I can have the energy like this everyday. Singing myself all the way long from the carpark right to the main entrance of the 6th floor of HDOK, which pretty much says something like this, "PAEDIATRIC WARD".

Hahaha. Wooo, may be this is the sign of bumping into my prince charming eh?? Woot! Woot! Peeewwwit!
Haha.. Seriously I am way too high, euphoric!

Tsamina mina zangalewa!

Yeah yeah today is sunday! No idea y am I so excited bout it when I will work till 5. Sunday, it is time for church. Hope I have the energy to go. Sing and sing for the lord! Huhu reminds me of the superb choir team of st joe in kuching. Really love the voice. My most fav part is when they play the alleluia part just after the reading with the iban traditional music! And I would be the loner standing among the crowds, so excited to sing the alleluia!
Wow I m so missing kuching!

And QMM 6787.......

Haiz. Belinda couldnt help.. And she is my last hope. Looks like he would just be my distant dream. As it already is..
Sigh... Tell me how on earth would it not be a dream.. When I am here, right here, this tiny little spot of sandakan, surrounded by a 80% suluk, or may be bugis, banjar? Argh wut ever u call these PTI!

While he is there, surrounded by the pretty ibans n bidayuhs, wutever local they have there... And has never (ever !) came to know bout my existence...

Sad little memory that I kept in my luggage when I was leaving on the jet plane in april this year...

Well well, everything unto thy hands lord.. Let thy will be done, and I carry it out for u, my master...

Don't know how to describe the feelings I have now, in my heart. It just feel heavy. I am becoming lack of word, my vocabulary is exhausting.
I feel more comfortable to just let my mind drift away. Looking through people, with weak blink. Listening to the background noice. keep my breathing slow and shallow.
Looking for a spot in sandakan to stop my car. A spot with no building, no roof, no people, just nature. I am missing the beach.
Wonder if there is a place for star gazing here..
Desperate for fresh air.
Everyday I am trapped in a building looking after sick child, trying to satisfy and do what the boss says, and when I leave that place, the sun has already on its way back to his dwelling, place. Everyday is tiring. Everyday I meet the same people, talking about medical stuff, discussing about patients, say goodbye just to meet them again and do the same thing the next day. Colleagues and friends are different.
This everyday routine makes me numb and numb-er each day.
It is not about the work. But the life.
Need friends that I can laugh with, talk with, lean my head with no physical boundary.
. Miss the old time when the girls are sharing the same bed chit chatting, gossiping, shopping.
So much to share. So much to tell. But no one. Cuz not simply anyone can. Only those I have faith with.

Missing her

I miss my mummy..
It has been 9years..
Time moves so fast.
Met her few night ago, in the dreamland.
So beautiful, she looks so young.
She smiles, a beautiful one.
Alas, I dun remember what was it all about.
I just remember that she looks so happy, looks pretty.

I hope I wil have the dream again. That's the only place.i can afford to have a peep on her..

He who walks with me

Beginning to feel his presence.
He speaks in silence, but I heard his voice.
The path is crooked, but he holds my hand.
My work is heavy, but he gives me joy.
The future seems dark, but he enlighten it.
It is impossible, but not to him.

I knew, I know, and I always believe, he is with me, even during the darkess hour of my life.
Even when I doubt him.
Nothing is to be compared to u.
I feel the joy. Give me more.

Yes, you. You, who walk with me.