Random questions with random answers

Hi Weizy! What's your name?
~Si comel~

What are you doing?
blogging. While watching this Sindah Sakura malay series. Lame.

 What's on ur mind babe?
errrr... the perodua owner??? (oh come on Weizy... him????.. You have not crossed his mind even a slight! wake up babe.. haish..)

 What do u feel now?
I am so happy!!! :D Because at last, after half a year in Sandakan, there are people coming this weekend to visit me!!!! Yoohooooo!!! And im gonna bring them to have seafood in Jambatan 8. Yummyyy!! So long since i last had seafood. Now since i am on my diet ( m trying okkkk....), im not gonna touch rice until then. Let's make it a reward after absolute abstinence from rice. Hehehe.. Isn't thing sweeter when they are harder to get? When things are abundant, we take them for granted. we only feel the lost when they are gone. Sometimes I miss my life as medical student. I didnt own a car, didnt have my own room, I survived with my Petronas Scholarship. Only occasionally, when I really broke, or I need to pay for my hostel fee that I asked some penny from my dad. And I thank God.... for all the abundance, he has bestowed upon me. And all the hardship, that he has permitted, so that I will appreciate life, more..

 What songs do u like to listen now?
Kadazan dusun songs? not just to listen, but to sing! And I miss to be in my kampung. miss to spend time lazing with my cousins. chit chatting how we has grown up together, celebrating CNY every year together, except for the very CNY this year!!! :( And I wish, I can speak my mother tounge.

 Weizzyy.. what are you having now?
Muesli? heheh. told ya i wanna have a healthy diet :P

Where do u wish u were at this moment?
Phuket. Snorkerling, with bikini.

 Your impossible list of wishes?
 1. jumping and bouncing from one cloud to the other.
 Shouting names of those whom I heart so much. Like Mammmiiiiii....!!! Dadi...!!!! Ah Weiii!!!! and may be S....!!! kekeke

 2. to couragely die.
Feel the death, and come back alive again.

 3. To be at the extreme end of peace, bliss. A place where i am not bounded by time and space. to be able to feel each molecule of air that goes into my lungs, every tiny red blood cells that flow through my blood vessels, that sustain me.

 4. Hmmm.. To meet my mother.
 In a garden full of kinds of flowers, with me and her wearing white long satin dress, with crown made of grass and branches of tree on top of our head. beside the splashing waterfall. Angels flying around us. and, we talk like mother and daughter. laughing. and then to lay my head on her lap. let her pat my hair softly, and gently, like all mother would do to her only lil girl.

5. WIsh I can communicate with people by touch.
Mere touch. or just a look into the eyes. I am not good in  making use of my mouth, rather my hands and my eyes.
Wish I when I touch people, laying my hand on their chest, they know what I want to say. (watching too much fairy tale-like movies)

What's about you that people have no idea about?
I love when my eyelash fall. To see that there is one or two strand of my eyelash fall on my cheek or my hand is like a strange satisfaction. sometimes I rub my eyes just to make it fall.

I am good at stalking :P

I am a good actress. As in real good. Especially to make a fake poker face.

I can laugh, really laugh, like a pig.

I am shy. But I am tough. I describe myself as a bag of tea. The hotter the water, the stronger the tea tastes.

I am not like what I present myself as. First impression they give me, an arrogant beautiful (this im not quite sure tho) lady.

What do  u like about yourselves, physically?
My nose, especially when i smile.

What U dont like, then?
My SFH-of-40cm-size tummy?
My men-like arms?
:(

ok now weizy..What's about him that you like????
I dont know, really.
He has a chinese-look, which I am not a fan of.
He is just a lil dark, rather fairer. I mean, I like dark-skin guy.
He looks so boyish. in which I prefer a man.
May be because of he is a gentleman?
A guy with his own principles.
A guy whom quite honest, I would say.
He is energertic, very positive-minded. I am driven by positive people.
Too bad.. He is just stubborn like me. or I would say, he is not simply not into me.
Well... unto thy hands Lord..

got it.

forced myself to sleep last night. bring all the heartache with me. with the hope of leavibg it behind the dream, and come back alive freshed.

was waitin to talk, chat, like before.

but I do not know how to.

try to think some (rather lousy) excuses, but none.

and I am so cowardice.

at last I saw him there, the list of ppl with the green light beside their names.

ok. Available.

tot he would responded like how I would.

but it was totally upside down. totally white and balck. just like his and mine.

I ve made tha courageous move to initiate.

but, when ppl asnwer u, one after ur question, and it takes them half hour to reply.

you just know what it means.

the conclusion with the chat and his weird cold behaviours, the green lover aint interested in me.

I tot weizy, the watch lover said "Sabahan girls are not my type"

might be wrong but I feel that the peroduo owner doesnt like me. doesnt like not as in doesnt like, but kinda-hate like doesnt like.

hmmm may be because im so blunt in words and actions.

I think he thinks that I like someone else.

and he thinks that I think that he likes someone else.

so everyone backs off.

so everyone gives way.

and both are... what can I say? Fool.

and I dont think I can erase that.

damage is there.

gonna stop sayin things.

gonna (try) stop looking for him, his car, his voice. evrything.

but gonna steal his positiveness and bring into my life.

his enthusiasm.

his way of thinking.

his friendliness.

his kindness.

I will try.

just go on with my lil life here.

wish list

Here are things that I long to have and to do:

1. watch
Seriously, I do not know how to buy a watch. I just need a simple one. Simole enough for me to count the pulse of my patient. My previous watch is a gift from my ex. Now the battery has drained out. All prrvious ones also bought by family. never bought it myself.
can I ask for someone to buy me? I rather pay them than to buy myself.
Someone pleaseeeee.... Anyone? ##kedebab## ounch muself again on the face. ya right weizy, noone goona read ur blog.

whatever.

2. Sewing machine
Damn! so expensive. the only brand I see is Singer, which at least costs bout 700. but im gonna buy it one day. Wanna make my own clothes. I dont think it is that difficult. It makes me so geram to see a simple too cost like rm30. I can make a better one!

3. travel
wow this has been my dream for so long. places that I wanna go is the europian countries. I fall in love with their culture. especially their food. wine, spaghetty, breads. and I wish I can get married to one of them! kekeke

4. star gazing
never get bored with the nature. always meamerized by them. they stay beautiful, perfect effortlessly. and I wish I can do this with my partner of life.. I hope he is a beach lover too!

5. bungee jumping
guess I wont really have this chance. where la I can find this here...

I say your name in my prayer

I have decided.

Not gonna beg any sympathy from you.

Not gonna ask for any attention from you.

Gonna be just me.

I might not have you.

But I have God.

He pleases me when you hurt me.

though you never know.

The day passes so easy when the first thing I do when I open up my eyes, I tell him to walk with me.

Boy, the crowd is too large that you dont notice me.

it is ok.

though im hurt cause you dont see me as how I see you.

I say your name in my prayer.

May you become a good doctor. A good friend to everyone as how you are now.

may God Bless you.

hey god!

Good Morning world!

Hey God, please walk with me and hold my hand.

I am a lil girl who doesnt know how to go across to the other road yet.

God, whatever happens today, I humbly put it before you.

I surrender it to you before it comes, so that everything shall be blessed by you, be it a good or bad for me.

Lord, help me not too be too blunt with my words, that I unnecessarily hurt others, or make a fool of myself.

Lord, help me not to be carried away by emotions, by my mood, or by my feelings.

Lord help to know that, whatever u permit, is the best for me.

Though it means I dont get what my heart long for.

Lord, bless me, love me, guide me.

I need you Lord, because truly, my heart is so empty.

Thank you Lord. Alleluia!

you dont realize

you have been so quiet lately.

and so do I.

wonder how r you doing there?

wanna say hi, but I just coudnt spell it, and send to you.

Bet you wont know.

hmmmm.

Many things you, dont know, and dont realize.

do u know I dressed myself up for you?

No you dont.

I dont give a damn what I look like, what I clothes I wear if I am with the others.

but I do, if it is you.

I dont give a damn what others text me, what they write on my wall.

but i do, and I am happy, if it is you.

again you dont know that.

and I am so happy if it is you, who bothers to know about me , and offer me help when I need it.

Just by asking, texting, make my day.

Do you, know, if I see you, you stun me, joy flows through my blood and shine through my face, and I have to control it, so much so that you dont realize.

Boy, you dont know that.

Do you?

prettier or uglier?

it is not a KIV to-do-list.

I am doing it now.

curling my hair at Hair Gallery.

what an impulsive act with a risky result.

but who cares..

whether it turn out to b a prettier me, or uglier me.

it is still me. Weizy!

hehe..

too bad cant upload any oic to the blog via my phone..