Will l? Will I ?

At home. Do not know what to do. Waiting for the time to pass and reach makan time.

Was looking through my fb pic , and saw my phuket vacation snaps.
Was so fun.. Wish I can go again.. And looking at those beautiful moment, makes me to miss my bestie sooo much...

Damn that girl, now she has a bump on her tummy! Gonna be an aunty very soon! All of my best frens are getting married nexy year. I feel so happy for them! But pretty sad for myself...
Not that I wanna get married. No.. Not yet. The commitment, I dare not to take yet. And hey! I havent enjoy my life to the fullest yet! most girls are very excited about getting married because of the wedding day,but days after that, no one will know.

Oh I miss her so much. Soon I will lose my bestie... To her husband.. N no more girl-only vacation no more gossiping no more sleeping sharing one bed, n
No more borrowing lending dresses. No more talking about make ups. I miss the old days... I miss my secondary school times..

Time flies, n now im 24. Alone, single, lonely. Huhu..

Nevermind weizy... That time, that very time, will come, and take u aback, n u will feel how wonderful ur life is.. How super smart god is, to close all the doors, just to let the one, that very special one, to open the door amd surpnrise u..
Just have faith weizy... It will come...

Yup! while waiting, let me just sit back, take a sip of hazelnut flavoured coffee latte, and enjoy the moment, the present. Which IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM DOING NOW! At Jesselton Coffee.

This is my 3rd time coming here. I likd this place, so far during any of my coffee-enjoying moment, I havent bumped into anyone from the hospital. Hehe.. I prefer a private life :)

Many of my frens asked why do I always spend time alone. It sounds pity to them. But why not? This is the knly gift I can give to myself, after a hectic life in the hospital. The only time I can sit back, relax and reflect the day, the life..
So many things going into my mind now. So many things to write here. But so much to type n that I do not what to and where to start with.

Next week, gonna take a 5days off, for the first time since working, for my once-in-a-life-time convo. But im not that. so excited, so looking forward for it. I just feel sad. One important person in my life, couldnt attend it..

Mami, I always wonder how life would be, if only u are here. Will u be proud? Of me.. Will u always bug me, call me everyday just like every other mother would do to their only girl? Will I be not this lonely? Cuz I have u to talk with, complaint to? Will I? Will I?

There are, just, so many many questions that life couldnt answer me...
And that keep my mind occupied, wondering, guessing the answers.
Im scared I wil just not able to hold my tear, on that day..
each graduate will only allowed to bring 2 persons to the convo ceremony. Everyone is bringing their parents. And me.. Im cracking my head, thinking of how to fill I
Up the other empty seat...