Perishable

Today everything seems not right. Everything hoes wrong.

And I am exhauseted being worry, being pressured, in fear.

Screwed up. Messed up.

But y dont I have any feeling now? Too numb.

Tired of trying to satisfy the one above u, and got messed up.

Really I am tired...

that, I have run out of space worrying what will happen next.

Well, at least half of the burden emotionally borne on my heart had been released by the fall of my tears.

Sometimes we just need to cry.

Cry our heart out. And what a relief after that!

Well, as I said, as I never failed to believe, God is fair.

He knows that I am strong that he givese all these.

And he doesnt leve me alone.

He sprinkles some sweet remedy when I was dealing with my hard time.

It was sweet that I laugh in between.

And thanx to the face mask again.

Hehhehehe.

Popped into my own world, smile at myself.

But hmmm, as wut it usually happen, the sweetness doesnt last long

Sometimes, it ends abruptly.

Gets me manic.

Gets me a heartache, not literally, but physically.

It is up and down, the feeling is like u r riding on a roller coster.

Though it might be quite fun, chill, adventerous.

I prefer a quite life, not rolling in between two extremes.

I am afraid to love, cause I am fear of losing.

I ask myself, if I dont love, I wont lose.

And I just couldnt agree more.

But what is life without love.

It is pathetic.

I guess we both bear something in common.

and I am trying hard not to be noticed.

Tryinh hard to be cool.

Cuz I dun wanna start something I cant commit. or contributr to its start.

Cuz I know, it just a transient, mortal, perishable, feelings....