fuck

I am so exhausted & frustrated with the elective posting. Imagine last night I was on call, with the hope that i can at least conduct 1 delivery, but it turned out that only few mothers delivered their babies. And those damn fucking student nurses took away my case. Fuck.

Now have to compete with these student nurses. Hate them. I timed the contraction but they didn't report mi timing, but theirs. Shit.

Fuck you.

And got scolded by a paediatrician for not knowing how long to time the heart beat of a baby in an emergency situation.

A mother delivered her 1st twin, baby is flat. They quickly took the baby to resuscitate her. The pediatrician asked me to listen to the heart beat & count the rate. So I did. After that..

Pediatrician : U took the whole minute to cunte the heart rate?!
Me : No I counted for 15sec ad then times four.
Pediatrician : What year are u in?!
Me : Year 4..
Pediatrician giving his (ugly) surprising look to me : They didn't teach u about neonatal resuscitation?!
Me : No.. ( may be not yet, may be in year 5 )
Pediatrician : What?!! I also from Unimas! ( dun believe me). It is 6sec, then times 10. We don't have enough time.


Fuck you. Shit. U think u learn all in medical school?. Shit! So what if u r from Unimas too. U think what u have learned, the same with what I have? fuck you. As it is I am already a medical STUDENT, I am still learning la, bodoh!
Ya, it is my fault not knowing that, but did u have to give that fucking ugly look to me & raise ur voice? It is true that no one has taught us about neonatal resuscitation. jadi macam mana? bodoh butul! U think when u were in year 4 medical school, u were as smart u are now? May be u were even dumb-er than me! Fuck you.

And after that, my mood was spoilt by a MO who complaint about us not attending the Morning Prayer. Fuck you. any rule tells us that we elective medical students MUST attend the morning prayer. What the fuck!!! Arghhh!!!

I took 7 tablets of panadol because of the headache I get from all these. Shit.