Hectic

My heart and my mind are not in a peaceful state. I cant concentrate in my study. Too many things rush into my mind, like winds from every corner of the earth blow violently and turn into a wild hurricane.

These are the list of things that attack my mind, in the order of intensity:

1. Shegay

It is him again.
He has exceeded my threshold of patience and kindness. I just could not stand to see his face, hear his voice, or smell his stinking body odor. I am so sensitized to his presence. My IgE-coated mast cell will anytime release infinite amount histamine whenever he is within a near distance, with subsequent burst of systemic inflammation.
Even a little signs of his presence remind me of what he did to me in facebook, and thousand of other things that he did that evoke my anger and irritability.

I just dunno how much more to describe this person. Have you ever experienced a kind of hatred that has reached its uppermost limit that words just couldn't describe it? That is what exactly i am experiencing now.

How i wish that i could spit to his face and curse him back as how he did to me in facebook. He just made a mistake, because he definitely has no idea whom is he dealing with. He has no idea how much damage i can cause him, how deep i can pierce through him, just, just by my words.

Do not try me, Shegay.... if you are not ready to bear the consequences.

I am so upset that my life at this moment and time are ruined by this idiot monster. But i just couldnt help it. I am so disgust by his behavior. I am so disturbed when i think back what he did to me couple weeks ago. I just couldnt forgive this monster.

Arghh!!! Such a pain in the ass to be in the same group with the monster, that i have to bear to see him almost everyday. Imagine seeing someone who cursed u and stabbed u at the back for everyday! and in front of you he can still smiles and acts like nothing has happened.
Hello, Shegay! I am not as stupid and retarded you!

Oh God, please teach me patience. Help me to forgive him as how you have forgiven me.
Open my heart and grant me the wisdom to look to the bright side of it. I just could not bear this pain, just because a monster in my life in which you prepare for me to test me. Help me, Jesus.

Ok, enough about this monster.

2. Forensic report

Arghh, the dateline is just another 3days. I just couldnt do anything with this bizarre and hectic state of mind.

3. ENT Seminar Presentation

The day after tomorrow. Arghh, imagine, each of us have to present 2-3 times of seminar! As if we know what we are presenting. The best analogue for this kind of situation is the blind leading the blind. How can we present something that we ourselves aren't sure of? The Head is such a congested area, with its own anatomy, physiology, pathology and bla bla bla.. And within 3 weeks of hardly any adequate knowledge of clinical experience, how can we present it to our friends whom knowledge level is just the same as ours?
What a system!

3. Case presentation, Case write Up

These are again items that give me a terrible headache!

4. New roomate

She takes things for granted. How i wish everyone to be considerate to others.

These are a list full of just complaints. I wish i can stop complaining!!!