Duty

I am makaning my Jacob biscuit for my dinner. Diet? NoOO! The biscuits are just additional to my Fried Rice. :)

I spent whole day in the hospital. I am the first to reach and the last to go back.

I didn't clerk patient yesterday due to the o going rainy season. So I decided to go early to clerk them for BST preparation. I didn't clerk all my allocated patients, because today I am not in the mood of clerking. So i finished early, around 10am.

But when I was heading back to faculty, I turned back to Hung Hung Inn instead. It was drizzling since the morning, I didn't want to be trapped in the flood if I go back hostel. And my BST only started at 2.30. Meaning I have 4hours plus to hang around. No where else, so I had drinks in the Kedai Kopi Near Hung HUng Inn, ALONE. In order to pass the time, I ordered 2 drinks and finished it slowly. I ordered roti canai kosong too. Sigh no tosei......

Can someone bring me to eat Tosei?

Then when we finally finished BST. I had to wait for Dr. Wong who was at the time busy with his patient. What to do, I am the group leader, so I had to sacrifice my credits and some time to confirm every BST, hen tell every one in my group f there is any changes.

Well, I look this in a positive way. I never been a group leader. So why not this time? before I leave this Unimasku Yang Gemilang? I will have the experience. I pity those guys. They are always the one who become leader. MM.. girls are so passive, too dependent on the guys. Girls, Stand firm on our feet, we can also be the excellent leader!!!

MM... I am so upset with myself. I have read about the principle management of fracture. But when Prof Pan asked simple questions on indications of external fixator, I just couldn't answer it. It is like the same with those who don't read. Arghhhhhhhh!!!

Then today, There is a young Dusun man from Sabah referred to SGH due to Ewing's Sarcoma. I went to talk to him, though he is not my patient. Just being nice to my fellow Sabah friends. And I was looking for the Sabah Male nurses, but couldn't see them. Thought of just saying hi to them, but seems like they have changed the rotation, now they are in the female Ortho.

This Sabah patient in the Male ward is from Penampang. Pity him cuz I believe it is not easy for him and his family to come here, as he is not from a rich family. He is alone too. The father just went back after few weeks accompanying him here. Being alone in a remote place because of sickness, and with financial problems, is definitely no fun. He is undergoing Chemo, and he is now bold.

Seems not fair right? A person in addition to his financial problems, given such disease. While the rich people simply spending their parents money foolishly, have fun throughout their lives.

Well, I have been asking this questions many times, but I still have no answer. I guess this is out of our control. Only Gd knows why he chooses certain people to bear the heavy cross, and some are allowed to enjoy their lives.

May God look upon us, who are carrying our heavy cross on our shoulder, and offer His help so He could carry it with us. Amen.